Friday the 13th

   Like a car accident done and over with, today we pick up the peices. As much as we can replay it in our heads it doesn't move us forward.
  Today I'm empty, I have nothing left. I refuse to argue anything more having to deal with this disaster we find ourselves wrapped up in. Where does this leave us? Yesterday could have been so perfect.
  I shut myself out of the network but for the last few days I just wish there was a deactivate for our lives just so we can be nothing but a memory just for a couple days. I wonder if people would miss me. Twenty years of fighting for myself I think Im ready for a break. Your suposed to be my escape.
  I lay here alone wishing this pillow was yours chest and this blanket your arms.  I don't have much emotion left in me right now...
  And I honestly believe this distance is a test, a test that we're failing. I can sense your doubt and taste your fear. That same fear you mask with anger.  I'd be niave to believe our story would be flawless, but I refuse to let it become nothing but flawed, the rest is up to you.
This beautiful Friday the 13th decided to make itself present the second it hit 12:00 am last night.
  Who is right or wrong is irrelavant at this point. I'm not fighting anymore to prove a point, I'm fighting for us. I'm not saying either of us is to blame more then the other. I know a big fraction of this is my mess, but I'm asking if my bestfriend wil help me pick it up. If you want to fight for a point, prove to everyone who thought this wouldn't work that they were wrong.
   Let the storms roll in and we were always the ones dancing in the rain, despite how bad the thunder. We lost our carelessness in the fight to pick up the pieces. Quit worrying about how the Vase broke and pick it up before we continue to step on more glass.
  If I had one simple wish right now I'd wish to take away your pain. Even if that meant keeping it for myself, it was my fault anyway. The distance between us tests our ability to build more then just a physical relationship because thats how it all started.