What it all comes down to...

All the mistakes I've made I give you every right to be upset, but you get so wrapped up in the hurt that you can't see how much more I'm doing to fix it.
If your going to forgive me...then forgive me. Sadly enough your pushing me away. Your negative energy is eating me up inside because I try everything in my power to make it go away and its always something new. I know some you can't help but a lot you can. I'm sorry that I hurt you. It's something I must live with everyday and I'm trying to keep you and myself happy from the mistakes I've made. 
We'be began taking eachother for granted and I refuse to let this coarse continue. I'll do whatever I can to prevent failure but I camt do it alone.  It feels like you expect me to have full control over that but I can't. So here we are..... I didn't want this but maybe my mom is right. Maybe if we realize we can loose eachother we'll come to see how important this relationship really is and well work harder, swallow pride, and clear the canvas for a new chapter. I know I've done everything to fix me...but what are you doing to fix you.

I lied. He's the death of me. Because when he's mine I'm alive. He's my life. He's my pills that take away my pain.
Everything is crumbling under my feet.  How can we let this fall apart? How can we just walk away knowing it was the best thing in both of our lives. Granted....I guess we forgot how hard we fought for this and how rare of a love we had. Well never find it again. Just like the lotto it came so fast..it only happens once and before you know it...its gone.
How am I ever going to move on. 
All I want isn't for seen in the near future.  So all I can do is sign over my rights and leave both my hearts to a better life without me.  The thought is burning a hole in my mind. The plan is all thought out. The hurt is already consumed my soul months ago. All is left to do is leave my regrets on a peice of paper and just do what my demons have been ordering me to do.