This is old yet so interesting. Wrote before July

The last few weeks have opened my eyes. Some things I've been holding in for what seems ages.
     I've never claimed to be perfect, and I made it very clear that I wasn't. I am very much so human as are you. I make mistakes as do you. I have opinions and mindsets that could very well be nothing like yours. Thats humanity. That is what sets each person apart. That my love is why I am nothing like that last.
   Yes things have changed. I am scared. July seems so close an before I would say I was excited and in reality I am but I'm beyond nervous. Because once I was pretty positive I knew what I was moving into. Time has shown me jealousy and bitterness you still hold. Something you have brought with you from before me. I'm scared the person you fell in love with isn't what you bargained for. I'm scared when I get down there everything will get worse.
   Everyday I wonder if he's afraid of pushing me away. If he stops and thinks or realizes that he is in fact pushing me away.
    Any more it seems like everything I am doing is wrong. It's become more of a job to please you and make you happy.

mothers day

I just want one day all to myself. I carry around way too much. I try to be happy for way too long and I'm way too many people support that I'm having trouble simpley carrying myself.
I'm trying to hold you together so you don't fall apart...and I'm trying to keep my son from falling apart.
I just want someone to pick up my pieces....not scold me for falling apart.
A mother shouldn't cry on mother's day. It's not fair. I've put way to much effort in a day to day bases to be crying.
I guess as of right now the best present someone could give me is solitude because the only one that seems to be willing to care about my feelings is myself.