The last few weeks have opened my eyes. Some things I've been holding in for what seems ages.
I've never claimed to be perfect, and I made it very clear that I wasn't. I am very much so human as are you. I make mistakes as do you. I have opinions and mindsets that could very well be nothing like yours. Thats humanity. That is what sets each person apart. That my love is why I am nothing like that last.
Yes things have changed. I am scared. July seems so close an before I would say I was excited and in reality I am but I'm beyond nervous. Because once I was pretty positive I knew what I was moving into. Time has shown me jealousy and bitterness you still hold. Something you have brought with you from before me. I'm scared the person you fell in love with isn't what you bargained for. I'm scared when I get down there everything will get worse.
Everyday I wonder if he's afraid of pushing me away. If he stops and thinks or realizes that he is in fact pushing me away.
Any more it seems like everything I am doing is wrong. It's become more of a job to please you and make you happy.
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